Love is Complicated Stuff... [1]

[Chapter 1]


He was with me. We were walking side by side, hand in hand. He smiled down at me with his big, soft, brown eyes. How I wish I could have told him then, how much I loved him... But, I couldn't. I was scared. He couldn't love me the same way... It broke my heart, my own thoughts did...

I woke up and sighed. Not again, I thought, groaning.

I'd had the dream about him again.

The one I gave my heart to.

Or did he steal it...

Either way, he still had it.

What was I gonna do?

I'm supposed to be getting married in a week!

I got up and walked downstairs. I found my fiance in the kitchen, sitting at the bar counter.

He smiled at me,
"Good morning, my beautiful."

I smiled back and sat next to him,
"And good morning to you."

He went back to looking at the list for the wedding while I got a cup of coffee.

"So, we're inviting most of your family, right?"

I nodded,
"Yeah. Only the ones I know."

My mom walked into the kitchen,
"Good morning. Are you already looking at the wedding plans, Alan?"

He nodded,
"Yeah. Can't be too sure,"
he smiled up at my mom.

She smiled back,
"Of course. I'm surprised you don't need glasses at this point."

He chuckled.

Alan was my fiance.
He was also a vampire.

Why are you saying 'was' you ask?
Guess you'll have to wait and find out.

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Later, my mom took me shopping at the bridal store to get the final hemming for my dress done.

I looked at myself in the mirror.

My veil was on, my dress was on, my elbow-length gloves were on.

But there was still something missing...

But what could it be?

I have the dress, the veil, the gloves, the shoes, the bouquet...

Breathe, girl, breathe...

Then, I realized...

I don't think I love Alan...

My heart didn't skip a beat whenever we kissed,

I didn't melt whenever he smiled at me,

I didn't feel butterflies every time he said my name

But, why am I dreaming of him?

Why now?

He's the one who left.

So, why...

Why does my heart sill ache for him...